Good Friday

I went to church today and listened to my best friend give her testimony. Once she had shared her story, I listened to other women who felt liberated to be transparent. There were stories of hurt and pain, of doubt and of being unsure which direction to take. There were feelings of unworthiness and failure and fear of what lies ahead in the next few days.

As I drove home, I began thinking about our plans for this weekend, including church and family activities. I thought of the Easter story and what I want my children to learn this year. The Holy Spirit reminded me of this verse:


Jesus said, “Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing.” -Luke 23:34

When he said that, Jesus was on the cross. In the midst of his pain, he extended grace to the people who physically hurt him and placed him in that position to die.

It is so difficult in those moments to look at the one who has hurt us. We still feel the sting in our heart or the shortness of breath, and yet the thing we need most for ourselves and for them is to extend grace. They don't deserve it, but neither did we. Jesus died on that cross for us. He had us in mind. He knew we would mess up, he knew we could never be good enough to earn it, and yet, he gave his life for us.

How can I put a limit on the grace that I give?

I know that I am going to need more grace tomorrow. I know in the days to come I will not live up to the perfection that is needed to get me into heaven. I am not worthy on my own to be in His presence. I know I am going to need the grace that Christ gives me. How can I expect this from Him and not extend the same to others?

How do I give when I have nothing left?

There are times we feel we can't give any more. The thing we have to remember is that we are not alone. God is not asking us to give without supplying the gift. We need to be honest, with ourselves and Him and say, "I don't feel like extending grace, but I will do it because it is the right thing and I trust in You to supply that grace". He is so faithful in giving us the good things that we ask for. It may take several attempts on our part, but He will meet our need every time.

I listened intently to my friend today, it is a story I have heard many times and yet, at certain points, I found myself in tears. The anticipation of what was about to happen left me in awe. The grace that she experienced and then turned around and gave away is inspiring to me. This reminder could not have come at a better time.

Good Friday is a picture of grace. It is a gift that is available to everyone. While it is a sad event, the joy comes on Sunday. Our penalty is paid. Justice is served. Victory is His and ours! Don't let the story become dull because you have already heard it. Spend some time with Him this weekend reliving it and rejoicing in it!

Thank you Lord for the amazing gift of grace. I am unworthy and yet you continue to give me more. Please don't let me be dulled by the repetition of Your story. Help me to see and hear this Easter with a new perspective. Allow me to see you suffering for me and then rising to victory so that I can be saved. Enable me to pass your love to others in a way that brings you glory. In Your precious name, Amen.